Unicorns and Fairy Dust

A big portion of this blog is about my body, my weight and my body confidence. Both the happy parts and the bad bits. I promised you all I would never sugar coat anything for you because I want people to see the real Anna. The first update is that I'm still fat, I'm still over weight but I can still fit into Topshop jeans so it means that I haven't put on any weight since last year. I still have dreams about being a size 8, having cheek bones and just showing off some bones in general. Then I see a cake and think "Na, lets have cake". It's a very confusing circle. I'll insert a picture below to show you a current body image of me. Coming to uni has certainly changed the way I see myself and it's helped in a massively good way. In Workington I'd never dream of going round town with a skirt on or a crop top, or even how I normally dress at uni and on nights out in Bolton. when I'm back home I feel like uni has spoilt nights out now because I ...

So it's that time of the new year, where I think about everything I done last year and either laugh or cry. Let's face it, i done both. Here are my 2016 doll moments and disaster moments. DOLL I went on so many adventures with my best friends, it's amazing what 20 quids worth of petrol, brit awards 2008 cd and 99p chicken mayo can do. I've seen some of the prettiest sights, spent nights in my car near enough pissing myself laughing, I've nearly killed Chris and Jade so many times. I made so many new friends, went to a lot of parties and experienced a lot of hangovers. 2016 was the year Anna and vodka got into a relationship. I got into bloody uni, a thing a year ago I thought would never happen. Actually, a year ago I hadn't even applied for uni. so much for a gap year, Anna. I experienced freshers week and survived. I learnt how to be independent, something which O think my Mam struggles to cope with because 20 weeks ago I didn't even know how to n...

You can tell it's been a while when I do a post like this. instead of doing mini posts on each topic I thought I'd get it all off my chest so we can focus on Christmas and the new year. I'm single, yep I'm single and no longer in a relationship. A whole year and a bit together gone. For the fist week I was lost but now I've adapted and I'm ready to focus on Anna. There's no bad feelings, there's no hate. we just simply argued too much. When I came to Uni I didn't realise all the things in a normal household I took for granted, like salt and pepper. have you seen how expensive they are? It's crazy. or tinfoil, tweezers, biscuits and most of all; toilet bloody paper. Before I came to uni me and my Mam worked out my budget and let me tell you, that all went to pot. I did not take into consideration that Annas' essentials and the worlds essentials are very different. I just thank the lord for sell by date and chopped tomatoes. Christmas i...

Todays post is all about my experience with the first week at University. shock horror, I'm using lists. The kitchen is a prime place to make friends, everyone has to eat. Things WILL go missing- deal with it and buy new bread #breadgate You'll soon realise no one gives a shit what you look like, so go out with no make up on. Do it! Toilet roll will be used so fast. Someone will ALWAYS use your washing up liquid if left out. Drinks are cheap on student nights out and freshers, after that you need a loan. Take aways are hella cheap. You'll miss your family, your bed, your mam. you might even want to go home after 24 hours. DON'T. You'll meet people from totally different walks of life, they will make you understand that maybe the friends at home aren't as special as you thought. Everyone is scared to go to the toilet and poo, just do it before you all shit yourself. triple vodkas kill anna. google maps will make you walk 2 miles for a 10 minute wa...

You might have noticed that I've been very absent from the blogging world; this is because I lived. I lived and I played and I partied and I drank and I made lots of stupid and silly mistakes, I've danced beside lakes, sang my heart out at 3am and cried to my best friend over Uni. I made a blog post about everything/everywhere I wanted to go and do in the 6 weeks off. The list is below so lets just see what I've actually achieved. Go for a late night adventure to somewhere. Did it happen? Yeah I suppose, late night adventures to Kendal for a KFC and then finding a lake but getting lost and ending up a mountain. Adventures are the best when you text you friend and tell them you'll be 10 minutes. Go camping. Did this happen? Did it heck! I'm so cringe I make myself feel sick. Go on a date with Austin. Did this happen? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA NO. Take Oscar to the zoo. Did this happen? No, but I still love and miss him more than anything in this world. Dye my ha...

Dear my Drama Teacher, From my very first parents evening you told my Mam "You have a bit of a Drama Queen on your hands, don't you?" To my last parents evening where you said "Anna's definitely a Drama Queen and a strong performer, she keeps everyone in check." You inspired me to be as dramatic, flamboyant and sassy as I am. You gave me the courage to start doing drama and to be confident. You gave me the confidence to be happy in my own skin. You gave me a lot, and I thank you for that. You created (Well, you and Mrs Chima- or Miss Armstrong) the bag, the bag which ruled the School, had priority in the dinner line and was a absolute legend (I still spell legend like Leg-end, thanks!) My bag was something which I could sort of hide behind, metaphorically and physically. With my bag I felt more confident because people were looking at my humongous bag and not the fact my pen had burst in my blazer for the tenth time. You also used the fact that I...

Dear Sir, This letter will probably have spelling errors, miss used punctuation and Similes which doesn't make sense- a proper 'Anna' letter. See, you're the only person who made me believe in myself (And yes, I still use the face that beLIEve has a lie in it). Who told me that just because my target was much lower than my potential, a letter on a sticker should not stop me from doing my best. You used to constantly tell me that the way I wrote was unique and it's very rare someone can write like they speak, "You write like you would have a conversation, but dear god Anna, why so much glitter?"- The time I used glitter for a mood board and you were finding it two years later. From shouting at me in the corridors what PEE stands for, to asking me what I'm going to get as GCSE results; then getting very angry at me when I shouted back "D". You made me believe in myself. From skitting me about my bag, to my obsession with glitter and Jor...

I go to Uni in 95 days and it's only just hit me that I've done fuck all this year. Summer holidays are approaching so I think it's time to do some crazy things with my friends (I mean Austin, Chris, Jade and Caitlin count right??) I've composed a realistic list of things I want to do, and in 95 days I'll come back and see how many I've done! I want to go for a late night adventure to somewhere, I'm talking about 1am drives to Blackpool to get some pizza. I want to go camping somewhere, have no signal for facebook or snapchat and fail at making a fire. I want to go on an actual date with Austin, get dressed up and talk about random shit. in 95 days I'm not going to see him every day, I don't think either of us have let that sink in yet. *HINT HINT AUSTIN PET* Take Oscar to Barrow zoo, or even just a day out, just us two. I've seen Oscar at least twice a week since he was born and to then see him once a month is going to be a massive cha...

Hellloooooooo! It feels like forever and ever (Amen?) since I last wrote a blog post. basically, because it has been! With moving house, having no internet and my phone being a dickhead; I haven't been able to blog. I'm back though, I'm back and I'm never, ever leaving you guys ever again! In case you've missed the last few blog posts I'll link them here , here and here for you to look at! So a life update.. I'll just jump into the deep end and hope to god a attractive life guard comes and saves me... I'm hoping to go to University in September, 100 miles away from my Gran, my bed and my boyfriend. We've been going out for 8 months and the most time we've spent apart is 2 days. When and if I go to University I'll be seeing him once a month. ONCE A FUCKING MONTH. Now, this makes me sad because once a month seems like nothing but I'm also excited to see how we cope. I've also become a bit of a alcoholic in these recent...

So exams are approaching and I can't believe it's been 2 years since I done my GCSE's! Today I'm going to share with you my top tips for revision and how to survive this manic time! Find out how you revise better. This may be different to your friends. The way I found out was to just try, trail and error is your best bet here! Knock your phone off, just do it okay. Make sure you have plenty of sleep, aim for 9 hours. Take time to eat regularly and drink plenty of water.  FOR THE LOVE OF UNICORNS PLEASE, DO NOT USE ENERGY DRINKS AS A SLEEP REPLACEMENT Don't quit your social life, obviously if you have a exam on a Monday and you're going out on a Sunday, I wouldn't advise it. In all fairness, you still need to socialize and have fun. Listen to your teachers. Funnily enough, the teaching degree they done actually means something and they may know more about a certain subject than you. Ask if you need help, it's what they are there for. You ...

Hello my lovelies! This post has been requested a lot, so I thought I'd make you guys happy! Some of the products are kindly sponsored or are gifts from various companies. Like always, these will be notified with a * and a direct link to the web page. I try my hardest to make sure all products are available worldwide, but sometimes this can't be helped. Some of the products used in this post may be tested on animals and may not be suitable for Vegans or people who don't agree with that sort of thing. With that all said and done, lets carry on with the post. My skin care routine doesn't really change if I'm wearing make up or not, as I'm prone to spots and break outs I always like to use quite hard and strong products. I have combination kin, at the minute it is quite dry on my temples and oily everywhere else. I made 2016 the year that I was going to sort out my skin and ever since I said that I've had so many break outs it makes me feel a bit sick. ...

I found out last week that I disgust people, and I was fullt clothed, wearing a bra and I wasn't swearing. So what was it? I'll tell you what it is was, it was my muffin top, my over –hang and most importantly- my flab. But you see, this flab reminds me of a time in my life when I was thinner. It’s not fat as such, it’s skin which was stretched and now is, slightly less stretched. I bought this skirt will all knowledge that my belly would stick out but I accepted that. So dear body shamers/ that girl who told me I was fat at the age of 10/ that man who told me I should only drink diet coke, yet he was drinking frosty jacks out of a bag. My belly is a part of me, I know it’s there, when I lost all my weight, it was still there. If I wear a skirt and my belly is ‘there’ don’t you dare ask if I’m pregnant, don’t you dare ask how much I weight and don’t you ever, criticize how I dress “because it doesn’t suit my body shape”. I will dress how I want, some days that’s in ...

Now, before anyone else says, I know.. I know that roots are natural and without them well, there would be no hair or plants or other things I cant really be bothered to research about. My focus is on hair. I dyed my hair a couple of weeks back, just before bank holiday Sunday and since then my hair has seemed to grow so much. I mean, maybe it has always grew this much but with having nothing on my roots, I couldn't or didn't notice. I love that my hair is growing, obv. But, I just hate roots and the fact that my hair is now black and my roots are brown makes me look like a right idiot. I'm also very stuck on my hair style and colour right now as well, I feel like, because my hair is so darn thick I have lego hair and a bank balance which can't cope with forking out money to get it cut. I would like to go back to a brown for summer and still have my coloured ends but then again I want to go a full colour? What do you guys think? Adding to that, I want to cut my fr...

My week has been actually lovely and I say this with the biggest smile on my face. First off I've spent more time with my littlest cousin Oscar, who is the most loving little boy ever. We are best friends and there's not a week we don't spend time together. When I head off to Uni I'm not going to see him for months at a time and that really scares me, so I'm trying to make as many memories as possible. We've played games, pinched each others biscuit, tickled each other until were both crying and had lots and lots of cousin snuggles. He's 3 tomorrow and it's so scary that my baby cousin is getting bigger and can talk and you can actually have a conversation with him. Secondly, I received an email off a company (who I can say just yet) to review some clothing and I'm really excited to share it with you. Blogging opens up so many doors for you and I find it really interesting to compare which companies come to me. I always find it's the little...

Someone reminded me on a facebook group that I don't have long left until I really need to sort my life out. In September I turn 19 and either spend it at home or away. I'm either going to be at university or at home. And that fucking scares me. Iv'e always had a big family around me and there is always a shoulder to cry on and a pair of ears to listen to your moans of life. People might be shocked to read that I'm pretty awkward when first meeting people and I'm no good in all that first impressions shit. Which, I'm pretty sure is key at University.. You know, like making friends and not being labelled the strange kid on your first day. My Gran and Mam will be the first to admit that they have babied me since I was born. The whole concept of paying a phone bill and actually checking dates to see if the milk you've been drinking is turning into cheese. I've never had to do anything. I'm not saying if you gave me a pan, some chicken, r...

Dear Anna, I've chosen this age because it's when most things started to blossom... And then burn. Right now you have a crush on a boy, a real big crush and everyone knows.. Even him. You'll shout and get jealous and you'll honestly think that you're going to marry him one day. How sad. It takes you until you're 17 and 7 months to finally get over him. I want you to know that you should never change to get a boys attention. Your Mam is in a relationship, you hate him and his kids. You want them gone from your life. You want you and your Mam, and you don't really want to share her. You'll hate his kids, you'll hate how strange they are and you'll hate your soon to be Step Dad more than anything in this world. I  want you to know that, even though things might be though and you hate everyone and everything, things will get better. Right now, you hate your weight, or should I say a few individuals hate your weight and they will do eve...

Welcome to week 2 of my happy week series! This week has been full of exciting things, the biggest thing I'll leave to the end! I received 2 Mac lipsticks, one off Mac directly and another one I bought at a discounted price. Both are lovely in their own ways but I couldn't have purchased two totally different liptsicks! Velvet Teddy Ss you can see from the photo, I'm hideous at taking pictures of promoted products! It's such a nice colour, way more pink toned than I thought. I'm not sure if it was strange lighting in photos online but I always thought it was more brown toned. It goes on smoothly and I'll be doing a make up look based around it soon, so you'll find it here when it;s live. Overall, it's a really good lipstick and I thank Mac for sending me it! Royal Matte This lipstick I bought at a discounted price, Mac did not send me it for free. I was actually speaking to J azz and well, she always convinces me into buying things I don...

Now, most of you won't understand the title, but if you're in my college group, you're probably laughing right now. As the end is nearly in sight and soon well have to go our separate ways, I wish I could stay here forever. I wish I could stay in room 120 forever and have Karl or Corey bring me a hot chocolate and a cookie every morning. I wish I could keep all my friends together and make them ever so angry at my life choices. But I can't. Life is just starting really, stupid fucking life getting in the way of my right now, perfect life style. Stupid uni applications which make me nervous, stupid aptitude tests which I fail and stupid, stupid interviews which make me feel a bit sick. Stupid buses to college which I secretly love and stupid bunch of lads who I love more than anything. Really, it has to come to a end. when I left Southfield I was relatively upset, more scared to be honest. This time, I'm terrified of adulting the adult worl...